THDK Chapter 18
by tenchaanChapter 18: Acknowledging Weakness (Part 3) (Final Chapter of the Childhood Arc)
As soon as I returned to my room, I thanked Zain and watched him leave before diving onto my bed and letting out a sigh.
βAre you asleep?β
βNox!β
I was startled by Noxβs voice and jumped up. I rushed to him and hugged him tightly, and his strong arms wrapped around me.
βWhatβs wrong?β
βI want to tell you something, Nox.β
Talking about the past is scary, but I feel like I can tell Nox. Besides, I think heβs the only one who can encourage me.
βTell me. Come here.β
Nox carried me in his arms and sat down on the bedside. I sat on his knees, and he wrapped his arms around me from behind. I felt safe and at ease.
βIβm going to tell you about my past. About my brother, and how my parents abused him. How I wanted to be loved, and how I wanted to spend more time with my brother.β
I told him about all the sad and painful things I had endured, and how I had to keep them all to myself.
βWhen I see children holding hands with their parents, I feel envious and jealous. But I tell myself itβs not okay to feel that way.β
βYou donβt have to suppress those feelings. Itβs natural to feel that way.β
βIβm actually very lonely. Iβm scared of being alone. When I was in the forest, I was really anxious. But I couldnβt acknowledge my weakness.β
Noxβs hand brushed away my tears.
βI love you. Please stay by my side. Iβm lonely.β
βIs there anything I can do for you?β
Noxβs words sparked a desire in me.
βAnything?β
βTell me.β
I hesitated for a moment, but I wanted to be honest.
βEven if itβs a lie, I want you to tell me you like me. It doesnβt have to be romantic feelings, even sympathy is fine. I just want someone to tell me they like me. And if that someone is Nox, that would be great.β
I knew it was a lot to ask, but Noxβs response surprised me.
βI like you, Sol. My feelings for you may not be what you expect, but theyβre genuine.β
I covered my face with my hands and cried. For the first time, I felt like someone truly understood me.
What Iβve been searching for has been right next to me all along, but it still feels far away. My desire for Nox grows stronger.
To be by his side, I need to become stronger. I donβt fully understand what Alain taught me, but I donβt want to give up.
βNox, Iβll take my time to grow up.β
βOkayβ¦ thatβs good.β
Iβll take things at my own pace. Thereβs no need to rush.
βThanks for listening. Can I hear the rest of the fairy tale?β
βLetβs eat first, then take a bath, and Iβll tell you the rest of the story later.β
βOkay!β
I raised my hand enthusiastically. Nox smiled and looked at me with warm eyes.
If I could, Iβd want him to show me some passion, but I wonβt say that now. Iβll save it for when Iβm older.
Weβre finally gonna start the main arc!
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